Musings of a Bored Teen
Musings of a Bored Teen
As 2020 approaches, I can’t help but reminisce about the past – good and bad. I’m typically not a sentimental person. Except, I recently read an article about an essay contest called “dear future self” . Within it were the entries of the contest winners – high school girls who wrote about their present, their …
I once wished to be someone for just one night
So I put on a persona that was unlike who I was
I said yes to the things that scared me
And unleashed a side of me that I was unaware of
That night was unforgettable
Not because I no longer had the burden that came from my worries
But because of the guilt that had consumed me afterwards
I later realized that who I was that evening, was someone I wish to never become
I became the person I always envied
I became the girl who laughed
Who fit the ideal image of society
The girl whom everyone wished to be
Yet despite that I discovered that the girls I wished to be
Were feeling much worse than me
They laughed so much only to distract themselves of the emptiness within
They perfected their image only to find a flaw within the perfection
That night a lesson learned by me
A lesson on how nothing aren’t what they seem
And that though we might not be who others want us to be
We are who we need to be
-A.B
